Words Fail Me

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Words fail me.

The cascade of crushing pain overwhelms my senses in a cacophony of gasps and groans.

And words fail me.

I feel the spasm of my lungs as I struggle to breath and wracking sobs swamp my senses.

And words fail me.

Tears flow with total abandon like a wild waterfall crashing and crushing the body beneath.

And words fail me.

My eyes so heavy I can but stare at the cold, hard earth that is reality and the exhaustion of a broken heart consumes my every waking moment.

And words fail me.

I sit in the broken silence of the sobs that come from deep within. That place reserved for the dearest.

And words fail me.

Suddenly, a voice only I can hear, breaks the chains of grief just a bit. A little at a time for gentle is the voice.

And words still fail me.

The swamp of despair and heartbreak hits me and I feel His presence. No words needed as He comforts me.

And words still fail me.

I can do naught but lean into the soothing presence all about me. His healing and soothing balm the only confidence that I will survive this breathtaking agony.

And words still fail me.

He whispers my name and the chains of grief that are strangling me loosen their hold ever so much.

And words still fail me.

Another whisper from His mouth and I can still feel the pain but I can breathe again. I know that He will give me words again. The pain will cease to torment and words will return.

In time.

I will find my words again.

In time.

4 Comments

  • Mary Schreckengost

    Reply Reply February 23, 2016

    HI Angie. I felt this way when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. From the first time I heard the words “this is not good” thru till my last chemo and radiation treatment. God spoke to me all thru my treatments. He never left me. When I cried out He was there. I heard His words that never failed me, they gave me great comfort and peace. And now I have words again. Thank you for writing Words Fail Me. It’s is beautiful.

    • Angela Smuin

      Reply Reply March 25, 2016

      Thank you for sharing. Sometimes life throws things and events at us that suck the air out of our sails. I am so encouraged and blessed to know this very personal poem touched you!

  • Kayla

    Reply Reply February 24, 2016

    I thought my Poems were deep but this hits the spot for so many life events when you feel knocked down. It’s about getting back up. Some things words just can’t describe the feelings you have. I’m INLOVE with this poem on levels that can’t be explained in life. Nice work you guys. Love you all. No matter how good of a person you are we all feel the same at some point or another. Touching.

    • Angela Smuin

      Reply Reply March 25, 2016

      Thank you Kayla! This is a deeply personal poem that gave me a way to express my heart. I’m glad to know it touched you!

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