Words Fail Me

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Words fail me.

The cas­cade of crush­ing pain over­whelms my sens­es in a cacoph­o­ny of gasps and groans.

And words fail me.

I feel the spasm of my lungs as I strug­gle to breath and wrack­ing sobs swamp my sens­es.

And words fail me.

Tears flow with total aban­don like a wild water­fall crash­ing and crush­ing the body beneath.

And words fail me.

My eyes so heavy I can but stare at the cold, hard earth that is real­i­ty and the exhaus­tion of a bro­ken heart con­sumes my every wak­ing moment.

And words fail me.

I sit in the bro­ken silence of the sobs that come from deep with­in. That place reserved for the dear­est.

And words fail me.

Sud­den­ly, a voice only I can hear, breaks the chains of grief just a bit. A lit­tle at a time for gen­tle is the voice.

And words still fail me.

The swamp of despair and heart­break hits me and I feel His pres­ence. No words need­ed as He com­forts me.

And words still fail me.

I can do naught but lean into the sooth­ing pres­ence all about me. His heal­ing and sooth­ing balm the only con­fi­dence that I will sur­vive this breath­tak­ing agony.

And words still fail me.

He whis­pers my name and the chains of grief that are stran­gling me loosen their hold ever so much.

And words still fail me.

Anoth­er whis­per from His mouth and I can still feel the pain but I can breathe again. I know that He will give me words again. The pain will cease to tor­ment and words will return.

In time.

I will find my words again.

In time.

4 Comments

  • Mary Schreckengost

    Reply Reply February 23, 2016

    HI Ang­ie. I felt this way when I was diag­nosed with breast can­cer. From the first time I heard the words “this is not good” thru till my last chemo and radi­a­tion treat­ment. God spoke to me all thru my treat­ments. He nev­er left me. When I cried out He was there. I heard His words that nev­er failed me, they gave me great com­fort and peace. And now I have words again. Thank you for writ­ing Words Fail Me. It’s is beau­ti­ful.

    • Angela Smuin

      Reply Reply March 25, 2016

      Thank you for shar­ing. Some­times life throws things and events at us that suck the air out of our sails. I am so encour­aged and blessed to know this very per­son­al poem touched you!

  • Kayla

    Reply Reply February 24, 2016

    I thought my Poems were deep but this hits the spot for so many life events when you feel knocked down. It’s about get­ting back up. Some things words just can’t describe the feel­ings you have. I’m INLOVE with this poem on lev­els that can’t be explained in life. Nice work you guys. Love you all. No mat­ter how good of a per­son you are we all feel the same at some point or anoth­er. Touch­ing.

    • Angela Smuin

      Reply Reply March 25, 2016

      Thank you Kay­la! This is a deeply per­son­al poem that gave me a way to express my heart. I’m glad to know it touched you!

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